Thorn Birds

One of my favorite movies (mini series) as a teenager was the "Thorn Birds." It had everything a juicy film needs to draw in those hopeless romantics (a forbidden love, anger, distrust, pain, and of course passion). And as a teenager, I wanted nothing more than for someone to whisk me off of my feet and carry me off into the sunset. Then several years later, I met my husband to be. We had the time of our lives the summer before we were married. I thought I had finally met my night in shinning armor. Of course several years of marriage, conversations with other fellow friends, and life experience revealed that true love and life does not work that way, at least not all the time. I am not saying that marriage isn't good, that's not it at all, just not what I pictured. I have struggled to find the balance between being a good wife, mother, and the search to find out who I truly am and the person I want to be (you'd think I would know that by the age of 30). So, I guess I'd like to say that as I just embarked upon my 7th year of marriage, I have a new goal in life - to be less selfish along with thinking more positively. As it reads in the Bible - Phillipians 2:3 "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." I have spent way to much time thinking, "Oh I wish my husband did this for me," or "why couldn't he have thought to put the kids to bed without me having to tell him?" I suppose we all struggle with this issue at one time or other, but I definitely am one to put on a pity party for myself. So, you all can be my witness that I am starting this new goal (be easy on me, because I am human and habits are hard to break!) But, I believe that God is transforming me to become more like him - a rose in the making - and even at the mid age of 30, I know I have a promising future - both in marriage and in the life God created for me.